Be Patient.

Well Patient isn't on this list, But it is for sure a BIG thing heavenly father is trying to teach me. I feel like the last few months Heavenly Father has been putting me in situations that require me to trust His timing. I HATE IT. its actually really good to learn... but has been very difficult for me. For those who don't know me very well, I am not patient. I do not like to wait for things. I am that person if they want something, I will do what ever it takes to get that thing and I really almost always do. For example, My drivers license. I had done drivers Ed. online in a few short days. I had taken all the tests and passed with flying colors. All I had to do was go to the DMV, take a picture, and it was mine! But because I wanted it SO bad, I had finished all the work 5 months before my 16th Birthday. I just had to sit and wait for June 27th so I could "legally" drive my self around. Those 5 months I thought I would DIE. well the reason I am ranting on about Heavenly Fathers timing now is because of my mission papers. I decided "officially" to go on a mission in November. I dont turn 19 until June 27th. But Because I just am always so impatient I had my papers finished, Doctors forms filled out, and all the other shenanigans done before christmas. Bad news for me, my bishop told me I could turn my papers in February 15th be cause my availability. Great I can wait that long. False, I went crazy. I just wanted them in. But I lasted. Once February 15th came, My bishop informed me that it was not the original 150 days before your availability date, but 120 days. Yes I indeed was bummed out. Then Finally the time had come! I can turn them in now! I meet with the bishop, everything is great! he says " Meet with the stake president on Tuesday, you hopefully will have a call by the following week!" I felt like I had been waiting SO long to hear that! Finally I could get this all in, and receive my calling! I have no idea where I am going, but my heart yearns to love and care for the people. So Tuesday is today! I go to the stake president office, look at the sheet and sign in. 1 councilor came out, "I am so sorry, the stake president will be out of town until this weekend. come back on sunday and we will have it all done for you! I can name very few times where I have felt so crushed. All I want is to love those people, and to pray for them and to become their friend! Was that TOO much to ask? But I have to understand that He is really testing me, He is trying to teach me Patients because I will %100 be in need of that blessing on my mission as well as the rest of my life, when I am married and have little Humans of my own running around. Lessons are hard, as small as this waiting thing goes, It is a very big deal and Test for me. Hopefully I can understand Patience soon so I dont need to be tested on it so often! \ Heavenly Father has a plan, It is invisible to us now, and very difficult to understand. But if you are Sincerely doing your best to live as an "example of the believers" live then I know Heavenly Father will only lead you to eternal happiness! Have a good evening everyone, i hope you can look at your trials and find hope!